Shifting Priorities
I am currently in the realization that my priorities are shifting and they are shifting FAST. I want to do more things that fill my cup, rather than drain me. I want to go to bed at a normal hour and wake up refreshed & earlier to enjoy my morning (See my morning routine pt. 1 blog post). I want to drink less alcohol and actually DO things on Sunday without the hangxiety. I want to limit my social media usage and stop spending hours scrolling and comparing myself to others. And I want to say “no” to things that don’t serve me just to make others happy. The things that have made me happy in the past are changing and I am craving more of a low-key lifestyle at the moment. I want to slow down and do things that light my fire.
I have always been the “yes” girl when it comes to going out and doing things. It’s kind of become my thing. If I have free time, or a rest day from the gym, I will always try to make plans because I truly do value my friendships and connections. However, sometimes all I want to do is go on a walk while listening to a podcast, go to the dog park, make a nice dinner for myself, watch trash reality tv or drink ginger tea with goji berries (ie low-key). I am slowly learning that it’s okay to have a preference on how I spend my time. To be fair, it is MY life. I don’t need to fill every single second of free time I have just because I have it. I need to know what it is that I need at that time, and listen to it. Plain and simple.
It’s pretty obvious that I am a people pleaser to my core. I truly have joy from helping others, and making others happy even at the expense of myself sometimes (hence the problem). If I can make someone happy, I will do it. But the thing that has recently clicked is the fact that I am not responsible for others happiness; they are responsible for their own happiness. I’m always going to help If I can, but I will make sure that I am not giving from an already empty cup first. And what help can I really provide if I’m on E? It’s like how we are always told to put the oxygen mask on ourselves before helping others because you’re not much use to others if you’re unconscious. Similar concept.
I also want to be VERY clear. I have an amazing life, I have the best friends, family and boyfriend a girl could ask for. I am grateful for the life that I lead. I just need to really dig deep and adjust some things that aren’t serving me anymore. Changing and evolving is a scary thing, but I know its going to serve me well. I don’t know what has suddenly created this shift in mindset for me—maybe it’s not a coincidence that I just turned 30??? Either way, I’m excited to go on this little personal journey and to create a better version of myself.
If you’re in the same boat as me, its okay to change + evolve as a person, I would actually say its a sign of growth. Do what is best for you ♥